One of the things I see all the time is that as I change, my clients, my work and my relationships change. I know that might seem obvious, but it astounds me every time. I've been working on finding my own voice. Not the one that my mother and father liked, not the one my partner prefers, not the one my clients expect, but the one that truly expresses who I am. I want that voice to represent me in all my glory, and I also know that it must include the darkness too. It's hard for me to admit that. I'd rather be the nice person, the lovable one. But the truth is that I am comprised of light and shadow and if I don't embrace all of it, I do myself a disservice.
People think I'm pretty good about expressing myself. In a lot of situations, I am. In my personal relationships I can tell someone how I feel. I can even tell them diplomatically if they've said or done something that I disagree with or feel uncomfortable with.
I know myself well enough to know that I can express myself more clearly when I feel aligned with myself. If I don't feel lined up, I'll wait and ask for assistance from the Universe. When I do that, I always get an answer, which is pretty cool.
Where I can get stuck is in talking about myself. I don't know if it's because I was taught not to be conceited, or if growing up it was just too scary to be seen or if it was simply easier to let someone take center stage, but I'm ready to let that all go. It's not that I need or want to be the star. I just want to be able to express myself without being afraid of being judged.
So I think the first step is in letting myself say a few things and not judging myself. I'm sure the people in my life will notice the difference eventually. I have a feeling I will notice it right away. We'll just see how that goes.